Your life today is the result of your attitudes and choices in the past. Your life tomorrow will be the result of your attitudes and the choices you make today.
Monday, May 19, 2008
I Know Who Took Your Damn Cheese
I am freaking unemployable (at least mentally, since my bank account would not agree). If you were to look at my resume you would find that I appear to have a “commitment” issue. I can’t stay at a job longer than 12 or 14 months regardless of the industry. I came to my unemployable realization this year. No matter what company or job, I will never be happy unless I am the one making decisions.
Perhaps, being in this graduate program has reinforced what I knew deep down inside. I told myself my current employer would be the last company I do a song and dance for. The fact is I don’t freaking want to work for anyone. I don’t enjoy getting up early, and having people tell me what to do.
It seems every month, there’s a day where I feel trapped (that day was last Friday to be exact). I felt like a damn hamster in that retarded wheel going nowhere. As I accomplish new things, I expect to see the pay off (fuck patience). I expect to be able to practice what I’m learning in my graduate program, yet I am in not in a position to explore my learning while on the job. Then again, I don’t really want to waste my efforts on someone else’s bottom line.
The morale of this story is to get my grind on and start a few things on the side slow. This will enable me to practice what I am learning and also provide an outlet for my control freak nature. I don’t understand how people stay at a job 10 plus years, is that really what you were put on this earth to do?
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3 comments:
I feel the exact same way, only I don't want to work. For anyone else or myself, lol.
That's why I started investing...we'll see where it goes, hopefully up since the real estate market goes up and down...it's bound to go back up soon. :-)
Black- I feel you 100%.
i feel you and black mamba...i would love to go back to school get my phd and teach on a college level at my leisure...of course this would probably only be feasible if i were to get married...yea that's not happening no time soon...HA!
but i totally think your plan is a good one...i need an outlet myself
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