It’s going, I guess it could be better if I put in more effort. But in all honesty, I am not motivated at all. With the constant lay-offs occurring, I wonder who still believes in job security? And for those of you who are working, are you sure you’ll have a job by the end of year? I’ve applied to like four jobs in the past month. I had one interview that went well and I am just waiting to see if that materializes into something.
I’m not stressing over my employment situation, after all what would be the point? A little more than half a million jobs were lost in January alone, and its only freaking February, wtf? In the meantime, my job is to be the best student and get my hustle on.
So we’ll see what the days ahead have in store.
The most meaningful aspect of my life is My Guy. I would marry him now, if he asked. I never realized how deprived I was of having someone who truly loves me. It’s a scary yet overwhelming feeling. Who would have thought there was someone on match.com waiting to love me? For once in my life I feel complete, I feel like there is someone who truly loves me. Although I thought I’ve been in love a few times before, it doesn’t come close to the feelings I have now.
I am so looking forward to this Valentine’s Day, not for any superficial reasons, but this is my first V-day where I really understand the meaning of the occasion. I feel the love everyday from this man and it’s a beautiful thing. It’s been about 8 months now and it feels like a lifetime (in a good way). Its funny but I look forward to spending every holiday, occasion, and event with him. I told him we’re even celebrating Easter (colored eggs and all). It’s the first time I’ve done this with a guy, and for some reason I feel a need to celebrate every precious moment with him. More importantly it’s about creating memories with the person you love.
He’s very supportive of me while I undergo the job situation, and I don’t mean paying my bills. But I guess he’s the reason why I feel like everything will be okay. I sometimes spend the night over his house during the week and I love sleeping in his bed while he gets ready for work. Its almost like we’re playing house and I get to satisfy that fantasy of being a house wife. No offense but that’s about as close as I’ll get, my goal isn’t to be home all day. But I love the way he smells in the morning, his clothes, and the way he kisses me goodbye in the morning. Yes, I’ve got the bug pretty bad, lol.