Monday, July 27, 2009

One Day...

Lately there have been so many emotions regarding my job. I’ll first start this post off by acknowledging I am very grateful for not only being employed but also working in my preferred field. However, I can’t help but feel like my head is constantly being banged against the imaginary glass ceiling. I definitely make no excuses when it comes to overcoming hurdles/ minor set backs, but its frustrating to know some just have it easier simply for being and no other reason. People wonder if racism is still an issue. How could it be after all we have a black president? I say, we still have a long way to go and you see that in the news everyday. Hell, I live my life everyday and see things on a regular basis.

I guess being an intelligent, ambitious, beautiful, and outgoing black woman will indirectly build character. God knows I find myself having to tone down certain aspects of me, so other women won’t feel threatened. This isn’t an angry post, its more frustration and an opportunity to vent. So what are my issues?? I hate the fact that I (as a black woman) will always have to be above average just to be giving a fair chance (i.e. job interviews). I feel I need a Masters just to be considered for an entry to mid level position. I hate the fact that people assume because I am black; I must have grown up in south Dallas (a ‘black” neighborhood, we won’t even begin with the fact that I am not from Texas). It’s interesting how people’s eyes widen when they hear I am graduate student at a certain local prestigious university (I guess I should only have a GED?).

I only seem to make matters worst because I have a warm and outgoing personality (God forbid, I am a happy person). The fact that I out dress just about every woman in my department doesn’t help matters either (its really effortless on my part). Yes, I am very confident and sure of myself. But I am also a dedicated team player and I love what I do. It annoys the hell out of me when others want to attempt to steal my joy or hate on me, just because they’re unsure. After evaluating all of my past experiences in this industry (almost 5 years in commercial real estate) I’ve realized that I have never had a manager who was on top of their game. I mean loved what they do, while kicking ass as they do it. I almost want the “Devil Wears Prada” chick; at least she was great at what she did (to a degree,lol).

I am trying to remind myself daily that its not the problem/issue itself, but more about my attitude towards the situation…

6 comments:

Blu Jewel said...

No matter how far you go, there will always be one that will hate you; however, your pay back is to simply continue to be you and do what you do well.


love to live; live to love!

JenellyBean said...

I hate it that we "intelligent, ambitious, beautiful, and outgoing black women" have to go through this day in and day out.

Keep doing what you do to make yourself happy.

You will make a difference.

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40 something and fab said...

Keep being who you are and having the right attitude through out all of it benefits you in the end... Most importantly god sees you and know your capability and the best promotion comes from him which will be eternal and not temporary like man has to offer...

YoungBlackBeauty said...

I think based in the same thing you experienced at your previous job you are more than willing to handle a lot. I'm just patiently waiting to hear news of your promotion.

Good luck!

Mrs. Nichols said...

I hear you lady. It just comes with the territory. Just keep doing your thing and love you!

2blu2btru said...

I love this blog...it is going on my blogroll for my wordpress blog. I know EXACTLY what you mean, as I am an educated black woman myself. I don't outdress anyone, lol, but the rest is true. Maybe you could give me some pointers on that! Keep writing; I will keep reading :-)

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