Lately there have been so many emotions regarding my job. I’ll first start this post off by acknowledging I am very grateful for not only being employed but also working in my preferred field. However, I can’t help but feel like my head is constantly being banged against the imaginary glass ceiling. I definitely make no excuses when it comes to overcoming hurdles/ minor set backs, but its frustrating to know some just have it easier simply for being and no other reason. People wonder if racism is still an issue. How could it be after all we have a black president? I say, we still have a long way to go and you see that in the news everyday. Hell, I live my life everyday and see things on a regular basis.
I guess being an intelligent, ambitious, beautiful, and outgoing black woman will indirectly build character. God knows I find myself having to tone down certain aspects of me, so other women won’t feel threatened. This isn’t an angry post, its more frustration and an opportunity to vent. So what are my issues?? I hate the fact that I (as a black woman) will always have to be above average just to be giving a fair chance (i.e. job interviews). I feel I need a Masters just to be considered for an entry to mid level position. I hate the fact that people assume because I am black; I must have grown up in south Dallas (a ‘black” neighborhood, we won’t even begin with the fact that I am not from Texas). It’s interesting how people’s eyes widen when they hear I am graduate student at a certain local prestigious university (I guess I should only have a GED?).
I only seem to make matters worst because I have a warm and outgoing personality (God forbid, I am a happy person). The fact that I out dress just about every woman in my department doesn’t help matters either (its really effortless on my part). Yes, I am very confident and sure of myself. But I am also a dedicated team player and I love what I do. It annoys the hell out of me when others want to attempt to steal my joy or hate on me, just because they’re unsure. After evaluating all of my past experiences in this industry (almost 5 years in commercial real estate) I’ve realized that I have never had a manager who was on top of their game. I mean loved what they do, while kicking ass as they do it. I almost want the “Devil Wears Prada” chick; at least she was great at what she did (to a degree,lol).
I am trying to remind myself daily that its not the problem/issue itself, but more about my attitude towards the situation…