The past few days have been emotionally draining. I’ll first back up and say my mommy is in town and I am so happy to spend this time with. She flew out to Houston this morning to hang out with one of her friends and will return to Dallas tomorrow evening. She’s been here since last Saturday and will be here until Sunday. Things have been great having her around. She’s my friend and such a great mom. I haven’t seen her since New Year day.
Back to the reason behind this post. My professional life is a mess, I love my job and can’t stand my boss (what else is new?). After a few events that have unfolded in the last few days, it has become very clear that my boss considers me a threat to her position. Never mind the fact that I developed a personal relationship with her, explained very specifically what my professional goals were (not her damn job), and thought since she and I check the same ethnic box (a rarity in our industry) we would have each other’s back. But no, she’s proven just like “Becky” that any new smart, young, ambitious, and competent woman joining a company under a female manager will always have to dumb down their ambition and intelligence to stroke the insecurities of a mediocre leader.
There’s nothing I can do at this point within my company other than watch her dig herself into a grave because she refuses to delegate tasks and allow me to help her. I don’t understand the mentality of a manager who doesn’t want to nurture a person with genuine interests in our company but would rather hold them back or keep them with as little knowledge as possible. This isn’t anything new to me. In fact, I’ve experienced this at every job I’ve had in this industry (3 different companies) same shit, just a different day. I even have a few friends experiencing the same thing. What I have learned in my experience and also through my program is; it’s easy to manage slackers or “not so smart” employees. But it takes exceptional leadership skills to manager/lead employees who are smart and take pride in what they do.
In the mean time, I’ll let the higher powers at be determine my fate. I know I am on the path to greatest whenever an abundance of haters start to surface.