Tuesday, July 15, 2008

911..

I am reaching out to any of you who've read my blog or even the last few posts about My Guy. I must confess I am losing my mind over this guy and its scaring me a little. Don't get me wrong I am not going to take any drastic measures at this point, but this guy consumes my thoughts. I like this guy so much, that I think he's the one and it's only been 3 weeks. Its like I wish it were 9 months later and I had these feelings, maybe I wouldn't feel so scared about my feelings.

I'm not sure what to do, and I am not comfortable disclosing all of this information right now. What the hell do I even say, I think I love you? Its too soon, I keep telling myself, take your time. But am I to ignore or muffle my feelings? I don't want him to think I am psyhco (lol) I can't think straight, I don't even see other men. I don't want any other man. I adore everything about this guy. Its little shit that he does that has me grinning and cheesing like a little girl.

On another note, we have plans to see each other tomorrow evening. We are suppose to plan something fun and creative. Any ideas?? I don't really want to go out and we don't have all of the time in the world since we both have to work.

Help your girl out....

10 comments:

lovelyjd said...

Hey Confessions,

Again, your posts have been so inspiring! Here are my thoughts: This is the time to chill. Schedule some time with your girlfriends (if you have been ignoring them)in between your time with your new man. Time with friends, will often help with balance. I know you want to spend every minute with your new beau, and he totally seems like a good guy, but if your feelings tell you that you are in it for the long haul, the time will come for true feelings to be revealed. Furthermore, I think it is too early to say "I love you." Just sit back and enjoy the ride for now. There is no rush.

Ms. Confessions said...

lovelyjd-

I have calmed down since this morning :). I agree with what you have to say. I think I just freaked out this morning and had a mild panic attack.

I just need to relax, chill out and enjoy the ride.

Anonymous said...

I agree with lovelyjd. Just take your time and relax a little, per my first post to you. If you are both in it for the long haul, a little down time won't hurt your relationship. Your girlfriends will happy to see you as well, if you have been MIA from them for a while. I will say that I am happy, though, that you've met a great guy. Many blessings.

Ms. ATL

PreciousGem-Refinement in Progress said...

Agree, but also want to add...

I totally grin while reading your blogs and you are clearly smitten as is your guy. Enjoy him girl!!! Don't let fear, "the game" etc get in the way. That falling in love feeling is the best aint it!!??

Superstarprincess said...

After reading your previous posts, it sounds like he is equally enjoying the moment too. I just say have fun, and don't think about it too much. :) Your anxiety might be more hormonal than anything (I get that way mid-cycle with racing thoughts)...you sound completely normal. :)

hawa said...

I must agree with preciousgem... there's nothing better than the feeling of falling in love. Mine came at the end of 2006. He was falling just as hard as I was.

Now, we're happily engaged, sharing my sons, bought a puppy, and started the plans for a Vegas wedding next year.

We consider each other best friends... better than any friends of the opposite sex or same sex that either of us ever had.

I wish this same happiness for you and your Sweet Vanilla Dessert. hehe

hawa said...

I forgot to add:

No need to call 9-1-1. Put the phone down.

Look away people. There's no emergency to see here. Keep it moving. LOL

Liryc said...

Hey confessions, don't worry, everything will be ok. Just take it one day at a time. Things will work. Now, there really isn't an emergency. Its good that you're into him, but just take some time apart. Hang out with your girls just like lovelyjd said.

Get the balance back. You'll be fine, you were just thrown a curve ball. Its ok!

TwentyTwo said...

Deep breath! :) I agree with enjoying the ride. Squeeze out as much joy as you can during this phase of the relationship and steadily move towards what it was meant to be.

Black Mamba said...

Ok, I'm late to the game, but don't even trip. Enjoy the feeling and enjoy him.

I never mentioned this on my blog, but with D, when I met him...I knew within 30 min of talking to him that we were going to get married. It's an odd feeling to just KNOW. I never mentioned it to him, I just went with the flow, enjoyed his company...within 3 months I was asking myself if I was crazy because I had let him move into my house. After 4 months he made the comment he would be marrying me (which I've heard before from others, but with him I knew it would happen.) Now, 4 years later, we're still going strong, have a baby on the way, and he's picking up the diamond portion of my ring next month. :-)

The funny thing about all of it is at the time I had given up on guys, my mom knew I was depressed and sent me a really sweet letter with an enclosed angel anklet and told me that even though I'm not religious, to ask the Divine Mother for guidance on what I wanted. I felt stupid, but I did it. A week later, I met Damian.

Just put it in the universes hands and wait for it all to play out. If it's meant to be, it'll happen - trust.

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