Thursday, November 30, 2006

But We’re Friends...(thoughts to myself)

While there is no fairy tale ending to the “story” I told; I figure surely someone could relate. Would I do things over again, in the same manner? (of course not) However, I actually consider myself very fortunate and lucky to have had such an experience. It is through my friend that I’ve learned so much about myself and my ability to love. So there is no room for regrets.

They say you should never live life saying “shoulda, woulda, coulda”; but shit always seems to happen. I would have told my friend I was feeling jealous at just the thought of him and his girl (but I’m a friend and friends want the best for their buddies even it means not you). But what if you feel are what's best for him? Or is this a situation of picking your battles? I should have never let the lines between us get crossed. I knew my current predicament was bound to happen. But it was a great ride. I wouldn’t trade the experience for nothing in the world. I could have asked my friend to step out on faith and take a ride with me. But could a solid relationship really develope from the way we started? (The world will never know)

It may seem weird but I do thank him. We've learned a lot through each other...

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I say to myself “Right now, he has a girlfriend”…

So that's how you do it. Makes sense. Unfortunately my "friend" doesn't have a gf. I've just resolved to stay away from him. Hopefully that will work.

That's right! No regrets lady!! Thanks for sharing your story with us.

The Mistress said...

Trust me, I have no control over urges so I can't give you any advice! I don't *act* on ALL of my urges but I haven't mastered how to *supress* them. It's very sub-conscious and hard to control. Just concentrate on "physical restraint"...don't try to control your sub-conscious mind. It doesn't work!

:-)

Damon Z said...

I found myself in a somehow similar situation except I'm a guy and the girl was in a relationship.
I can relate to the conflict and how difficult it is to be rational. Still, if he is leaving his girl to be with you, is there a chance he might do the same with another woman you if you were together?

T.C. said...

We can't live off of "shoulda, coula, woulda...
YOU KEEP RIGHT ON PUSHIN SIS!
NO REGRETS...

We keep right on keeping on...

As long as you grew and you know you are growing and becoming the BEST you, you can be, and you learned from it...then you have no reason to regret...

Just do what's best for you, I have total confidence you will make it just fine....

j.a.c. said...

The anonymous is from me.

BluJewel said...

i tried to leave a comment the other day, but blogger crapped out on me. i'll try to remember what i said.

when someone you're that connected to is with someone else, the relationship you share will always be good because your time together tends to be limited. you're not going to squander that time and energy fighting or doing something of less substance. this is what keeps the fire in the relationship; the fact that you're not together all the time. speaking from personal experience, things tend to shift when both parties are available and no matter how well you know each other and how good the chemistry is, something in each of you will suddenly become different. enjoy it for what it gives you, but don't get upset if things dont turn out the way you (either party) hopes.

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